After All

Sorry to all those who know by now that I gave him yet another chance. Yes, we broke up about 9 months ago when I felt that I've finally had it. I thought to myself then, this is it. Nothing will ever change. He can never give more than this even if I wait, that's why I gave up. Finally, after 6 and half years, I left him.

I thought to myself that the only way I'd forget about him is to completely erase him from my life. I did what the song said...I put away the pictures, put away the memories. I deleted all his numbers from my phonebook. I was impressed by how strong I was because I did not even attempt to talk to him for 4 months.

Until one day, I received a text message from someone who's number did not register in my phones' memory. The message said "kamusta?", and I replied, "sino to?".

He did not tell me who he was and only said "di bale na lang", and for some reason I had a gut feeling that it was him. So I asked, and I was right. I said I was doing good and I don't know why he felt like he could just talk to me like he did when we were together and made a joke about me probably out on a date with someone at that moment.

I snapped.

If he felt like our relationship did not end badly, then he was really sick. I hated him still for hurting me so much. I told him nasty things, told him to never bother me again and that I hated him and that I wanted him to go to hell.

And that was it.

I couldn't believe after 4 months, I was still not over it.

Another 3 months passed and I got my new job to manage a hotel and leave Manila for it. I had a sudden urge to call him and tell him that I'm leaving. For what reason? I have no fucking clue. I tried calling his sun number several times about a week before I left Manila, but it was always turned off.

And then I was off...

Three days after I got to Boracay, there was that thought again...to call him, to hear his voice. At this point, I was thinking that I was already over him and that I've moved on and that I think hearing his voice wouldn't change anything. So, I tried dialling his other number using the business line and it rang, and he picked up.

I said, "Cy?", he said, "sino to?".

I told him it was me and that I just wanted to know how he was doing. He was in shock and could not answer me right away. I said "Kung busy ka, ok lang, I just wanted to say hi", then I hung up.

Later, He texted me saying that he was really shocked that I called him up and he did not know what to say because the last time we texted, I was fuming mad. I told him that I've already moved on and that I wans't angry anymore. We ended up talking longer and longer and then chatting thru YM.

We got to talk about what happened between us, why it had to end and finally, after months of waiting for it, it finally came...he wanted me back.

I didn't know how I felt after hearing it. Was it too late? Should I give him another chance? Is it right for me to do so? But there was one thing I was certain about, I still love him, fuck!

Amazingly, I missed him a lot, and I cried.

This was the only time that I got to tell him everything I felt while we were together, all the reasons why I left him. And finally, after countless times that I tried telling him how I felt, it was only this time that he understood me.

All he said was he wants to make it work this time and that he'll do his best to make it work.

I don't know if this is just another promise, but I was suddenly happy. Happy that after all, we keep coming back to this.

The curse that is rice

Bakit mahirap iwasan ang kanin? Hindi ko rin alam. Nakakainis sya! Kasi kahit wala naman syang lasa, at niluluto lang sya gamit ang tubig, ang sarap sarap nya. It goes with everything...fish, chicken, beef, soup, pancit, toyo, siomai, basta lahaaaat!

I wonder what it would be like na wag kumain ng kanin for 1 whole year, siguro I'll lose about 20 pounds.

I haven't had rice for the past 3 days, at kanina bigla lang ako nagcrave. So I ate at Mang Inasal's kasi nagcrave din ako ng chicken inasal. Ang sarap nya, with garlic rice. Haynaku.

Sabi nga ng E-heads, ilang kanin pa ba ang pipigilin?...

Totoo nga!

Marami na nagsabi sakin na pumayat na daw ako since I got here last January. But most of the people who have said so are from Manila, so they don't really see me except in pictures i post on Facebook.

And then just today, one of the commissioners that help me get bookings from guests came by (I think it was a month ago that I last saw her), and she said "ang slim mo na, ang laki na pinayat mo mula ng dumating ka dito" PAAAAAKKK!

Ang saya, although I haven't really gone thru the worst trials. Ngayon, and diet ko lang ay "no rice", at ang exercise ko lang ay "running" and "swimming". I don't really exercise religously yet kasi minsan tinatamad ako sa sobrang init. Pero I'll try to change that soon.

Cravings...

Darn Mexicali for infecting me with this craving!!!

Hindi ko alam bakit pero ever since I had a taste of the greatest salsa in the world (exaj syempre), lagi ko na syang hinahanap. I think I went to Mexicali at least once a month since then when I was still in Manila.

Ngayon, all I crave for is Mexican food (Cuban rin minsan). Here's a list of places I've been to around the island where I've eaten great Mexican food:

Ole - D' Mall station 2 - had cuban sandwich, and then chicken enchiladas (salsa tastes so much like Mexicali's)
Jony's Beach Resort - station 1 - had chicken enchiladas
Heather's - station 1 - beef fajitas, chicken quesadilla (not the best salsa though, but nevertheless, still good food)

Soon to conquer...
Manana - station 1

Now over to coffee.

Again, for some reason I have gone back to my coffee addiction, even in the absence of Starbucks (soon to open though). I look for it in the morning, at lunch time and even at dinner time. My body has been immune to the effects of caffeine since I don't remember when, that I take cups and cups anytime of the day and can still fall fast asleep.

Coffee at its finest for the best prices...
Waling waling - station 1
Heather's - station 1
Ole - D' Mall, station 2
Real Coffee - station 1 (just behind my resort, oh! and this is where ann curtis and aga muhlach shot their movie, it's the place where aga saw ann for the first time in bora)

For now, yan pa lang ang cravings ko, I've only been here for 2 months anyway. Let's see if there's more to come.


Kape kape kape, kamatis kamatis kamatis!

Return of the Comeback

It was just last night that someone gave me the idea of blogging again. I have been living in Boracay for the past 2 months and have not found a hobby that would keep me busy while the Island life continues to get to me.

So Cy says, "I think you should start your blog again..." and I say, "I'm not a good writer and I don't have anything to write about anymore."

I guess I was wrong.

This is the perfect hobby for me right now since I don't really have friends here that I can talk to regularly other than Gemma (my constant island companion/advertising manager for boracay tourist map and guide). I guess this is a way for me to talk about all the bullshit that will and have been going on with my island life.

I'm going to venture into photography soon, try to learn on my own. For now, while waiting for my camera to arrive from Manila (once i buy it of course, courtesy of my future sister-in-law, Zara), it's blogging time.

After 10 years...

...and I'm back! Yan naman, after so long nakapag blog rin, I know Ewee namiss mo mga birit ko dito. Anyway, wala lang. I miss writing here, leche kasi bawal na sa office to, kaya wala ng libreng internet! Wahahaha! Wala pa akong mga kwentong kakaiba from any of my stupid callers that come to mind right now. But I'll keep you posted....Eto na may naisip na ako...tulad ng isang arabong gustong magreserve ng room. Tinatanong ko kung anong city at state nya gusto magbook, wala syang ibang sinabi kundi I want the one on Banksville rd, banksville rd at banksville rd. Punyeta sabi ko nga what city and state, HINDI ROAD BOBO!!! Malay ko ba kung nasa Somalia yang road na yan! Shunga-ers!!!

At sa mundo ng mga prank callers...Unang salita palang ng bruhang caller ay alam ko nang manloloko lang ito. Nagbigay ng city and state na non-existent. Aba, ako ba magpapatalo! Nevah! Pinatulan ko sya gago sya! Wala akong mahanap na ganong city, sabi ko can you please give me a city that EXISTS! at tinuloy ko, rates, amenities and all. At ang tigas pa ng mukha nito, tanungin ba kung ano ang urine content ng pool? Hindi pa rin ako nagpatalo! Sabi ko in a very friendly and polite voice, "I'm sorry but we do not have information on the pool's urine content, if you want let me give you the hotel's number, I'm sure they can tell you." Tanong sya ulit, "do you think the kids can pee in the pool?" Sorry dahil eto ang sagot ko! "Oh ma'am that would be your option, it's not a problem at all." at eto na ang verdict......talo sya dahil binaba nya ang phone, pikon!

Sorry dahil reyna ako sa asaran! And on the other hand, I was courteus and helpful throughout the call, hindi ako nagrelease, at hindi irate. Ang galing galing ko lang na agent! Wahahahahaha!

Pasasalamat!!!

Ito ay isang pasasalamat sa mga taong nagalala, nagpaabot ng kanilang malasakit at ng mga text at tawag sa akin nung ilang araw akong na-confine na ospital. Nakakagulat talaga ang naaabot ng mga kwento kwento ng mga tao! Ang mga taong may alam lang na nasa ospital ako ay ang mga kasama ko sa opisina, dahil syempre kailnagan kong i-report ang aking pag-absent sa bisor ko at mga taong araw araw kong kasama.

Nagulat na lang ako na pati mga kaibigan ko sa Experian ay nagtext at nangangamusta. Na-touch talaga ako sa inyo, kahit magkakalayo na tayo ay naaalala nyo parin ako. Salamat sa pagalala. At sa mga taong di nakadalaw sa akin, ayos lang, dahil malayo naman talaga ang Chinese General Hospital. Basta salamat sa Diyos I'm back...

The Trials of Living Alone

I've been living alone in my own condo unit (of course bought by my mom) for almost a month now and it's quite fun. Being on my own is one thing I've always wanted to do when I was still in college. Pero grabe pala ang dadaanan mo pag magisa ka na lang.

Nung una madali, kasi my mom was the one who bought me raw food from the palengke like baboy and fish and beef, and she marinated them for me also. So ako, pagdinala ko na sa pad, all I have to do is cook it, which is something that I love to do. Kaya masarap ulam ko lagi. Cooking and cleaning were not really a problem for me, kasi sanay naman ako gawin ang mga yon.

And then came the bill, i checked my mailbox one day when I got home from work, and I have meralco and sky cable bill in my box waiting to be read. Ok lang naman ung bill kasi mura lang, but the problem was....how was I going to pay for the bill (as in hindi ako marunong magbayad)?

Katangahan ko kasi 2 days before due date ko lang naisip i-check ung mail to find out that 2 days after due date na ng meralco. Hindi ko alam san magbabayad! Leche napakatanga ko talaga! Hindi ko alam kung saan may malapit na meralco at anong procedure.

Nakakaloka talaga! Ang balak ko kasi before is give the bill and the money to pay for it sa mommy ko and let her do the transaction. Nakakainis! And I even thought of paying online, and because of my habit of withdrawing all the money I have from my China bank payroll account, wala na pala akong pwededng gamitin for an online transaction. Lesson learned...next time I will leave a small amount in my China bank account for meralco bills.

Kayod...kayod...kayod

Nakakainis! Everybody is leaving...work! A lot of people from work are now resigning. People from both Experian and HCC. Nabalitaan ko kanina from friends from Experian na bilang na bilang na ang mag vet reps na naiiwan sa Experian. At puro newbies na lang, at pati ba naman dito sa HCC lahat umaalis na! POTA!

Bakit hanggang ngayon nasa putanginang call center parin ako. I've been wanting to resign but I cant' seem to find a job that I want. May mga nabalitaan na akong maga taong lumipat ng ibang call center, at dahil sa meron na silang value dahil sa experience, they are being offered more than what I am earning here in PS. Gusto ko rin non, kasi ang taas ng sweldo, but I swear ayoko na talaga sa call center.

At present I'm thinking of trying abroad, naisip ko Singapore since it's not so much of a culture shock pag andun na ako. And I want a job in which I can put into application what I have learned in college. Parang ngayon, nagkakaroon na ako ng urge to take the freakin' board exams. Hindi ko na talaga alam kung ano gagawin ko. I'm so bored with this mediocre job (no offense meant to people working in call centers...) but this is just not me.

I want action, I don't want to just sit in a chair all day and talk to strangers. I've always wanted movement in what I do, no dull moment, no idle second! Where can I find the answer, and the job that suits me?

Tulungan nyo ako utang na loob. I can still work here in the Philippines, if there would be a good job opportunity. I was thinking of applying as a med rep, that's a tiring job, but at least I'll be always on the go, hindi ako mabobore. Mabilis akong mabore sa trabahong idle, but I'm not sure if I'm cut out for being a med rep. Wala naman din akong makitang med rep opening sa mga labs dito. So paging anyone who knows kung saan ako pwede magapply, don't hesitate to reach me with the details.

And if somebody out there knows about any job openings in Singapore which is Science related, please let me know. Umaasa...